.i'm a romantic.

Psalm 138:8
The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me;
your steadfast love, O LORD, endures forever.

i love knowing that the Lord has something
so much better for me than i could
ever ask or imagine.

i love when leaves come crashing down
around me on the way to class.

.i am a rescued child.

i recently came out of a really dark time in my walk w/the Lord.
Covered in sin and shame i literally chose to not approach the
cross, worried for some reason that i was too much of a burden.
But there is grace, PRAISE THE LORD, there is grace.
Glory to God that He works and moves. This passage so clearly
speaks what the Lord has done for me. So much so that I was blown
away when I read it yesterday. Thank you Lord!

¹⁶ He reached down from on high and took hold of me;
he drew me out of deep waters.

¹⁷ He rescued me from my powerful enemy,
from my foes, who were too strong for me.

¹⁸ They confronted me in the day of my disaster,
but the LORD was my support.

¹⁹ He brought me out into a spacious place;
he rescued me because he delighted in me.

Ps. 18:16-19

i can’t believe what He feels toward me.

constantly pursuing.

His heart burns for me,

burdens for me,

feels with me and rejoices with me.

He is love.

"The Lord is good to those who depend on him,
to those who search for him."
Lam. 3:25

maybe i seem cynical, pessimistic, sad, you name it. . .
i wear my emotions on my sleeve.
joy, despair, happiness, sadness.
Because why shouldn't we share these things, share ourselves in true form?

Maybe i'm wrong?

i need to stop paralleling my life to songs.

.after all i've done, You have loved me.

i think i'm going through a season of pruning... it's intense.

i'm going to be honest, i don't like it.

To be even more honest, it's hard for me to be excited for the good that will come from this.

"St. John of the Cross saw the dark night of the soul, not as an actual abandonment by God, but as an expression of His love, that helped perfect the soul by purging it of all of its remaining attachment to spiritual faults and earthly things"

One of the only things that has kept me going is this song "After All" by Jon Shirley...

i'm battling through many things. Jesus, be my rock.