i just want to trust you, Jesus.

i drove home in the thickest fog of my life...
Scary thick fog. Couldn't see but 3 of those little
dash lines separating the two lanes.
Then i almost hit 2 deer... it was scary...
i saw God in it though. Teaching me a lesson. He's constantly teaching me! I couldn't be more thankful. My trip just reminded me of faith. There are a million things going on in my life right now. Just so many areas where i have to trust Christ. i mean of course i don't have to, but does it ever make sense not to trust Him? NO! i could not see through this fog to see if i needed to turn soon, if the road was just straight, if there were deer in the road... haha. i just literally had to trust.

I want to trust Christ! I want to trust that I will:
*be re-admitted into K-State
*seize the opportunities that i am given this summer
*get all my housing situations worked out
*live every day for Him!
i just want to have complete trust. faith. hope.
It's possible!

Let me leave with these lyrics from Hillsong... AMAZING!!!
"Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I walk from nothing to earth into Eternity"


Peace i leave with you;
my peace i give to you;
not as the world gives,
do i give to you.
Let not your heart be troubled,
nor let it be fearful.
John 14:27

There are just some verses that bring comfort. It's just a good promise, you know? i've been so encouraged lately. Which is interesting. i'm not surrounded by many Christians. i work at the restaurant with so many non-Christians. It's so challenging to me to live for Christ and strive to be a great example. It's so hard! But wow... yesterday, God was everywhere. It was just one of those days where i could pracitcally feel the presence of God! So, so cool. It's just so cool too how Spring makes me happy :) Shows growth in the trees, flowers, grass, etc... and reminds me how much i want to grow in Christ. But i'm so ready... so excited to keep pursuing Him!

Random prayer that i thought was AWESOME!

O, Lord, whom to know is to love, I beseech you to increase in me the knowledge of your truth. In the truth which I know, establish me; whatever I ought to know teach me; in truths in which I waiver, strengthen me; in things in which I am deceived, correct me; in things hard to understand, guide me; and from untruths, deliverance. Send out your light and your truth, and let them lead me, until I know as I am known.Amen.
Common Book of Prayer



Without Him:
i'm useless.
i'm scared.
i'm un-settled.
i'm not me.
i'm a coward.
i'm so many more things... but i am nothing.
He infuses my life. He richly blesses, and He doesn't hesitate to teach me! 

This hillsong song... i'm not even sure what it's called. But basically i listened to it like 7 times in a row in my car today. i wanted to shut my eyes and lift my hands, but i think that's against the law when you drive :)

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now i live to bring Him praise.

i love those words!
Then there's this section:

All my delight is in you Lord. 

Jesus- i want to live to bring you praise! i'm so far from where i want to be... but He lavishes grace on me... wow.