10.25.2009

sometimes things hurt too much to think about...
so i put it off
and put it off
and put it off.

Then, i think about them at the most inopportune moments.
This happened to me today during church.
i was sitting there, surrounded by people.
But all i could think of was crap.
Garbage in my life.
Life has been really confusing for me lately...
i feel like i'm spinning out of control.
i'm learning how to forgive myself.
i'm learning humility.

There are gross things in my life,
but my brokenness can only be offered back to my Lord.

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
-matt. 5:3

3 comments:

R.W. Shipshape said...

Mine always sneaks up on me, too.

Part of a favorite Rilke poem:
So many are alive who don’t seem to care
Casual, easy, they move in the world
As though untouched

But you take pleasure in the faces
Of those who know they thirst
You cherish those
Who grip you for survival

Emily said...

we need some quality time this week. fo sho.

tiffaroni said...

your vulnerability is beautiful too. ilovesyouback :)