He left the comfort of his throne to fight for victory.

Sometimes my heart hurts.
i can really and truly feel it hurting.
For many reasons.

*Satan has been getting to me. blah.
*Sometimes people don't give me grace. blah.
*i want a 4.0 and that means hard work. blah.
*i definitely hate letting people down. blah.

But i take a step back and i see my Savior.
i see how He is my grace. How he doesn't lead me into temptation.
And how He is my constant. And i truly believe this.
My soul is alive when I am in His presence.
When I choose to see Him in, through and around me, I become so alive.
And I can't explain it any other way.

This is why i can get up each morning.
Because i have a reason.
LOVE.
Love wakes me up.

Try as I may to chase another Lover,
I find there is, there is no other

All the other Lovers fade away 
Only YOU can satisfy 

And happy am I, to live a hungry life
And blessed am I, to thirst
My desire for You, it is my gift within
I am blessed, I am blessed among men!

- Misty Edwards

i'm so tired of chasing pointless things.

To live is CHRIST.

Instead, speaking the truth in love,
we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head,
that is, Christ.
Eph. 4:15

The Lord has been calling me to wake up.
To be bold for Him.
To speak truth...even when it's scary because it usually is.
To live the love that's been given to me.
And to consider all as loss but to follow Him.

i have been reflecting on this passage all week... 

so i'll share it with you!

"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
    I have called you by name, you are mine.
2When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
   and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
   and the flame shall not consume you.
3For I am the LORD your God,
   the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.

Isaiah 43:1-3(ESV)

The Lord is so faithful.

There's distance in the air and I cannot make it leave
i wave my arms' round about me and blow with all my might
I cannot sense you close, though I know you're always here
But the comfort of you near is what i long for


When I can't feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear you, I know you still hear everyword I pray
And i want you more than i want to live another day
And as I wait for you maybe I'm made more faithful

All the folly of the past, though I know it is undone
i still feel the guilty one, still trying to make it right
So i whisper soft your name, let it roll around my tounge,
knowing you're the only one who knows me
You know me


Show me how I should live this
Show me where I should walk
I count this world as loss to me
You are all I want
You are all I want

-Brooke Fraser

i'm definitely going through a dry/scary time in my life. But wow.. He is still so faithful. 

 1 To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul;

 2 in you I trust, O my God. 
       Do not let me be put to shame, 
       nor let my enemies triumph over me.

 3 No one whose hope is in you 
       will ever be put to shame, 
       but they will be put to shame 
       who are treacherous without excuse.

 4 Show me your ways, O LORD, 
       teach me your paths;

 5 guide me in your truth and teach me, 
       for you are God my Savior, 
       and my hope is in you all day long.

This is the cry of my heart.

Psalms 25

God is changing my heart.

 He's showing me the power of prayer and showing me what that looks like in my life. 

i've been humbled. i asked for humility and i am in the process...

i had the privilege of hearing the author of "Red Moon Rising" speak today. i'm blown away. i think God is starting something in me right now that will change my life forever.

i can't wait.